PATHETIC
vardag /
2015-02-01 / 23:41:06
But I've been lied to often
I've been lying to myself to protect the fragile heart of mine,
and now here I am
still in love with the same guy that I have had
absolutely no contact with at all for more than four years now
And
I had sex for the first time in september last year
with my best friends boyfriends closest friend.
I wasn't attracted to him
but sick of the thought of wandering around
as a hollow shell.
And here I am
more hollow
more lost
scared shitless
of why the thoughts of him
never cease.
And now
my arms and parts of my body are full of lines
that ones were ruby
and now is pure white.
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